only in silence I've found peace

Life has always been, forever will be unexpected.
And only in silence today, being here, in silence alone with my rambling thoughts I've come to a state where I believe I've a better understanding, full acceptance and respect of who I am.
A passion for a better living, a passion for career, a passion for writing wishing one day I will leave a legacy of my words in a book.

A lot of hurtful moments, tragedies or happiness, reconciliations have happened; I laughed, I cried, I tried, I worked with tears and blood and yet I am here today. In silence, enjoying the moment feeling a bit of bitterness but almost complete as a whole. Because I know, there are times I need support but there are also times I will need to stand up for myself. Bitter sweet, lovely.

Am I lonely? Strangely, no.

Now I understand that even though my friends and family cannot always be there for me, I know that whenever they can they will be, to support me or just as simply as being there for me. My closest friends are not many, you can even count them with your fingers but I've been blessed to have them in my life.

Am I grateful? Very much so.

Only through hardships and pains I understand who I really am and my real friends are.
The worst things I can imagine have already happened, so there's nothing to fear really.
It has never been about winning or loosing for me nor about proving myself

for I will keep evolving but have been and forever lastingly am strong