Pete to me…
(and those stuff running through my head)

Like the morning coffee that wakes me up each day, like the foam on my cappuccino – such a sweet topping and kinda sticky on the lips, like an easy breezy morning – not too sunny, not too cloudy nor rainy, just breezy so I can wear nice working clothes with high heels, like the song I dance with from the MP4, the perfect Sunday morning spent chilling at Starbucks with a cup of cappuccino and a strawberry cheesecake and a Sunday paper, a cuddly polar bear to snuggle with, fresh feeling I get after having a good sip of mango juice in a hot day, fun rollercoaster ride, the rush feeling of jumping off the tallest building – feels like geronimo, a perfectly baked banana cake, like dying to get to the end of Harry Potter’s page even if it means I need to stay awake all night and read it ‘til morning comes, dozen of hugs after a lovely orgasm, nicely tuck under the warmth of the blanket in a cold cold night, the obsession of buying a Manolo Blahnik’s or dieting to get size 2, those are just for now :D more to come.

○ February's favorite vacation destination: Bandung, euy!
Book review: The Ringmaster's Daughter - Jostein Gaarder (freaky ending! way the go Gaarder as always, he's the master of re-telling philosophy in a very humble fashion, you'll like this book, trust me)
Movie review: The Holiday - simply nice (tessa - 2007) different from other sappy romantic-comedy movies, go for it.

○ Songs I played over and over and over (again) on MP4: Waiting on the World to Change – John Mayer, Save Room and Stay with You – John Legend, Truth – Bamboo, (daily) Weight Loss hypnotherapy session

○ Song I dance with: Please Forgive Me – David Gray

○ Hottest bloke: Matt Long – Ghost Rider (young Tom Cruise, don’t ya agree, gurls?)

○ Shopping list: new boots – checked, Kenzo or Pure White – Estee Lauder (not yet)

○ This year’s goal: free of credit cards debt, getting married? (naahhh), get a proper raised (fingers crossed)

○ Favorite make out line: lagi! lagi! LAGI! *lol*

○ I hate: Indonesian boy band – Trinity (you guys are sooo gay), stomachache and tummy bloating

○ Head over heels for: Sammy – Kerispatih

○ Bandung’s rocking artists: The Cinnamons and Cangcuters

○ Things I think people need to do before their 30’s: get laid! – be on TV or radio show or something alike, pay for your own vacation, go and find your soul mate before tis too late, write a novel or keep a journal of your achievements so far do something unbelievably insane that you normally won’t do, on top of it all, be proud of yourself!

Valentine’s Application

This is what Pete's emailed me:

Dear Madam,

Concerning your recent ad in Bonteto Tribune, I would like to apply for the FULL TIME BOYFRIEND position.

Though I've always been a ladiesman all my life, to pass such an
opportunity to commit and spend this mortal life with your company would be a terrible decision.

Please consider this application of mine.

Sincerely yours,
Peter Valentino

And here's my reply:

Dear Peter,

Your letter just arrived, and after reading it several times to be absolutely sure of its content, I must say that being my FULL TIME BOYFRIEND is very risky.

I, however, can also say how pleased I am with your decision to take the position.

Again, welcome aboard.

Sincerely yours,
tessa

Jealousy will consume you!

I really, really like my partner and so at times I could not help feeling a bit jealous. Sometimes he's like a real chick magnet. It drives me nuts how some girls would get so all over him even when they are with their boyfriends, geez... please behave won't ya, girl!

One thing I learned yesterday though jealousy is such a waste of time.

We went to watch 'The Holiday' on a triple date and this new couple joined us, the girl was sooo all over Pete >.<
Her poor, insecure boyfriend even had drown himself into silence and withdrawn from any conversation or eye contact from the rest of the group. *poor guy*

The movie was actually simply nice, quite different from other typical romantic-comedy movies and I regret to let myself occupied with my own thoughts and insecurities while I could try letting go and enjoy the rest of the day *sigh*

Why does regret always come too late?

Home Sweet Home, Jakarta...

Jakarta tenggelam, siapa peduli? Well, I do!

Jakarta kan tempat kelahirankuw, tempatku dibesarkan, tempatku tinggal dan tempatku mencari uang. Kalo pergi ke mana-mana biar gimana pun pasti kangen Jakarta. Tapi sekarang dia sedikit lagi tenggelam...

Bapak-bapak baju basah, berlari-lari kecil bawa plastik putih isi susu kotak di dalamnya, cukup buat berapa lama... anak laki-laki duduk sendirian di tangga pinggir jalan lagi cari sesuatu di kantong plastiknya, ke mana mama papa-nya... keluarga yang tidur di mobilnya, rumah mereka bagaimana... muka anak-anak yang lagi ngungsi di rumah, I really hope their mum and dad could get a job soon...

they are all haunting me...